wantstofly, i've been divorced 15 years. i saw him for the first time about 3 months ago....he was driving behind me as i was going to work...what did i do? i burst into tears!! don't beat yourself up over your feelings. i had NO idea that i would REACT as i did.....i just did..i went with it and it really cemented my plans to get out of this town asap........good luck. xoxoxoxo pat