I have been married for 15 yrs of which I have only had the opportunity to work for 4. Between, kids, my husband being done alot and just could never afford daycare to work outside the home. Now 15 yrs later and 60lbs heavier. He just told me he prefers me the way I was when I was... That hurt me so bad . Becasue this is not the frist time it started early in the relationship. I love him to death. I can not even support myself. I have no work history, because I always felt guilty when I did not work my credit is horrible. he's perfect, I have had to turn down 10 jobs in the past years because the hours do not allow me care for my children. I feel so hopeless. I found myself , as many times in the past, wanting to leave this place. I cry all the time. I can not seek counseling. I have become a horrible mothe rto my children. I sit back and look at my life and I am no where to be found. I cannot leave because the children has no one (he is out of town again- he goes 8-12 months at a time)
Last year I lost 35lbs and the only thing he could muster to say was : you look great, but if you workout you can lose it faster"
He says he loves but I do not feel it and I have not felt it for a long time. According to him I took the conversation the wrong way, he where talking about wife getting over weight.
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