Im going to shed some light on the way my relationship has been for the last 8years.... My husband controls my every move..Im not aloud to do anything or go anywhere. Everything is his way or else we fight and hes mean and I give in.. Counsling ha ha he refuses to go he says he dosnt have a problem. He dosnt care how he treats me.. When ive had enough and im ready to go and he realizes im about to go, he begs me acts so lovey dovey nice to me till I give in and then in a week or so my husbands true side has come back out..I make alot of excuses for him because this is how he grew up, he watched his mom be abused to no end his father never showed any kind of love, he has no idea how to be affectionate.. I just dont know I move out and then he never leaves me alone and then hes nice and then before I know it I let him move back in and in a month hes back to him.... Im 26 with 2 kids by him...Weve been togeather since I was 18 I dont know how to let him go and be done and be firm with my decision.. Im not a mean person and I dont want my kids to hurt anymore.. I love my husband but I dont love him the way I use to hes done so much to me and my self esteem... Im afraid of being alone, their are so meny evil people in this world I am so afraid of bringing an evil person into my kids life and not know it.. I dont want anybody right now I want to be alone so I can heal, but in the future what if I find myself someone worse.. My husband loves our girls and hes not mean to them he just has no respect or care for me....I just feel so lost.....