at the end of the last school year, my bestfriend moved away to the other side of london. since then i've had an argument with my group of friends and have fallen out with them, and as much as ive tried to repair that friendship i couldnt. ive made new friends except this time i just dont feel comefortable being accepted by them. i dont say yes to outings, and i dont start anything new... i just dont want to get too close. and since being dumped for refusing to have sex, im now scared about relationships - i've since then had a boyfriend but ended it because of my paranoia about being frigid.

i just dont want to get hurt, but i dont want to shy away from everyone, i just cant take risks anymore...

so confused.

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