Saturday I took the nursing entrance exam for BOCES school of practical nursing...thought it was easy...last nursing entrance exam I took I scored a perfect score, and wasn't admitted, due to the fact that I have my bachelor's....when they heard that they said they'd give the chance to someone else..but that's another story..

So Monday night the scores are posted online....I look...it reported 11% on math out of 100% and 30% right out of 100% on reading.....everyone in my family thought it was a mistake..I called the school and voiced my opinion..they said, "It is what it is, you didn't get in..........................."

I started looking into being a medical assistant, as this was the last nursing school in my area....I looked at a real depressing school for it, and I was sooooooooo sad...... Then BOCES called.....the company that does the testing messed up...I got 77% on math (need 45%) and 95% on reading (need 70%) so I guess I/m on to the next nursung meeting where I write an essay about why I want to be a nurse they invited me to the Saturday morning meeting..

I should be happy, yet I feel duped, doubted, estranged, and hurt.....people are telling me but focus on you're on to the next step yet I just cannot........................