I mean between my husband and life......oh well here goes

Alright, where do I begin? Most of you may know my husband asked for a divorce about two months ago then wanted to make it work.

He blamed me for abusing him mentally in the last 15 years and I give him that. Ive been working hard to make things happen for the greater good of this relationship. I have started taking 200 mgs of seroquel a day for my mood swings and for the most part its working.

However husband is diabetic like me, 15 years hes been a diabetic who has not cared for himself. He had an issue last night with sugars in the 400’s ….talked to my mom on the phone and she was downright pissed at him. (for not caring for himself properly, as her and I are also diabetic) And in turn I feel I got some of the attitude. I told her I wanted to call her back and her answer was “well, guess when stacy is mad everybody just wants to hang up huh?” I said no. ( was in the middle of what I thought to be an asthma attack) and turned out to be just that. Then afterwards I tried to call her back but her phone was busy. Im guessing she took the phone off the hook, but not sure.

Now I feel like I screwed up and have urges to cut at this time.

Need help. Depression is kicking in…