Thanks i havent been here a whole heck of a lot lately. and im beginning to think my friends think ive ditched them. however, ive been in a funk so bad i havent even wanted to tell you guys. I am at work today. and work usually distracts me if even a little bit.

I feel like i have no friends anymore and that I am just a shell. the urges are huge today. coming in waves, like the tide. I cant swim. its too hard. but im trying. My heart is so full of hurt. I want to leave my life. I dont even have a great excuse on why to do so. I just feel the need to disappear. make any sense?

colleen