Thank everyone. Sorry for being so *****y today. I just feeling a lot of f'ed up stuff today and am just inconsolable. I know I should have compassion for the little kid I was, but I don't. I just want to smack her for being so stupid. This in itself shows that I haven't progressed much from childhood. Then I just want to slap the adult me for being stupid enough to be sucked into a disclosing stuff that is long over and done with. For those of you wishing you could open-up, my message today is don't bother it just make you hate life more. Oh and if you have any illusions that your T might think, wow I push pretty hard better make sure she handling it OK, think again. They don't really give a crap what happens to you after the session. I think the 10 yr old already knew this, that way she stays under the bed.