I agree with the others--try to get to some type of support and stop this before it grows into something bigger and out of control. Yeah, nobody can take away your sober time. You are not "starting all over." You are picking up where you left off. No, I don't even want to say that--you are living your life and learning as you go along. Keep looking forward...but, hey look forward with out the booze. You can do this. PM me any time!