I'm meeting with the (female) marriage T tomorrow... without husband, of course. She seems nice; I spoke with her twice on the phone. She laughed, which was good. I cannot have a T who doesn't laugh.

I spoke with (individual) T today over the phone-- we talked about some of the things I might want to tell her tomorrow-- outlining some of the things that I want to get out of marriage therapy.

I'm looking forward to this new phase of treatment. I'm half excited, and half depressed as hell because this is the real acceptance that H is not coming with me.... and when I told him I was going tomorrow he was just like, "Oh.. ok." %#@&#!