geekgirl

yes, I am extremely unhappy....the more that I have chatted with people on here the more that I realize that I have value and my actions were a syumptom of my illness..... and that is my ex girlfriend really loved me she would help me through this difficult time. But, she chose not to and I can't force her to want to hang in there. you can't force someone to want to put in the work required for a committment. I am at the point in my life where I don't want to be alone, I want a committment. I don't want to "be there" just because someone doesn't want to sleep alone, or doesn't want to go to family functions alone, or wants a "friendship" that just goes on and on with nothing more.

So yes I am miserable because I realize that I may never have the relationship that I deserve. And kind of scarey to look forward to growing old alone. Most single men in middle age and post middle age are miserable SOBs. I don't want that for myself. I have a lot to give.