sugar,

you came to the right place, you will always receive a response from someone at pc. first off, i want to say that you shoould be PROUD of yourself for acknowledging that there is something wrong in the way you are feeling. you should also pat yourself on the back for seeking help to resolve these issues. based on what you said about your bf, it sounds to me that he loves you very much, and you are fortunate to have someone that loves and supports you by yourside. depression is a ugly monster, i know. i too have been in inpatient treatment for it so i can sympathize with you. the battle is hard but there is HOPE. your recognition of the problem is the first step. please do not deprive the world of getting to know you by trying to commit suicide again. as far as jealousy is concerned, it is a terrible thing when it's excessive. with help you may be able to learn techniques to help minimize the anxiety you feel when your bf talks to other girls. we all have a little jealousy tendencies in ourselves, you just have to ensure that you are comfortable in your own skin to not let it phase you as much as it currently does. remember that at the end of the day you are first and foremost, and you gotta take care of yourself. you gotta hold your head high and focus on positive things. acknowledge that you are special just being who you are. realize that your bf is just as fortunate to have you in his life as you are to have him. hope this helps and that it all works out for you. take care

-agony