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earthmama said:

Maybe I will just to to my meeting without plans to pick up a chip and pick it up when I feel strong enough to. Otherwise, I'm afraid I won't go.

God, I just suck.

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Hi Earthmama...

You do not suck. You are an alcoholic and often relapse is a distinctive part of recovery.

Please go to a meeting and pick up a white chip.

It is so important to admit your powerlessness. Like wishing to paint a new picture of yourself,,you need a clean canvas...And,,maybe more importantly,,we are only as sick as our secrets...this secret that you will hide within you will only breed further gilt and shame and give your disease reasons for convincing you to drink again...

I know from where you speak,,,

Lenny