well as many of you know i have been going through the seperation process since march of this year. things are pretty smoothe now between us now. but now we have a new dilema. it appears that my hub may have cancer. i feel devastated for him. he doesn't want to confirm for sure that he does have it to me. he doesn't want to include me in this ordeal, yet the devastation on his face spoke a million words yesterday. i cried with him because i was so taken aback by the mere possibility that he may have this terrible disease. i still feel emotional today when i think about it. and it has basically consumed my thoughts all day. i know that i want to be there for him 100% through it if he does have it. because he has been there for me when i have been sick. i don't feel that i owe him this, but i can't imagine not supporting him through this situation even though it was me who asked for the divorce. just wanted to let this out, thanks for listening.