On the abuse forum you mentioned desires which, if ACTED UPON would make you a danger to society. That's why you need to talk to a professional about those desires. But there is a big difference between thoughts and actions.

We all have had thoughts occasionally of doing something we should not do. As long as we don't do it - no problem.

If these thoughts are obsessive and are getting in the way of you enjoying life, or if you are feeling compelled to ACT on them....you absolutely need to talk to a professional.

Let us know how it goes.