''I feel lost and trapped and scared and stupid and just BAD''. Reading this just made me cry. Im one step to the edge too.. dont know what to do, ...try to get a whole of myself... but 'falling off the horse' its such a BIG KICK in the head, breaking a commitment and dissapointing yourself like this is..... AAAUGHH!!!! all the fury, guilt, panic comes and drives you away... and you cant stop... and you cant die... and....
oh dude, im so f#ck&d.
But earthmama, you do it, GO AND DO IT!! For all of us that cant, get BETTER and be HAPPY!!!