I am so glad to read that your session with your T went so well. I've been following your story and can relate to some of it quite well. Good for you for being able to tell your husband about what you're going through. I just recently did that too (married for 17 years). It wasn't easy. I, like you, can't stand the thought of people thinking I am not okay. But, we can't keep pretending. It ends up being too much for us to handle on our own. Keep us informed as to how you are doing!