earthmama, it sounds like a healing session. I am glad your T was there to take care of you.

I too have intense fear of people seeing my vulerability. Above all, I am very afraid that people will see how much I am hurt. It is hard work keeping it all in and hiding how one truly is from the world. Maintaining that dissonance is a constant drain on the system. I am struggling to get out of that and have greater congruence. I am making some progress, but the fears die hard.

It sounds like by sharing with your H, you were getting rid of some of that dissonance. Does it feel at all like a relief? It's scary to think what he might do with it, but it is a step to deepen your relationship and show your self. A risk. Very brave.