Thanks all!!!!
(((((( Miss )))))) (((((( Foreverlost)))))) (((((( Soli))))))
(((((( Skeksi)))))) (((((( Sunrise)))))) (((((( LAS112))))))
(((((( Earthmama))))))

I have gone through a ton of feelings today - shock, gratitude, grief, empathy, relief, fear... had to take a nap to just let my body take it all in. Then this evening went to the mall ALONE (mom would have come with me if she could have) and i experienced a new freedom... like a person on the brink of life. i want so much for this to be REAL!

I had been given a gift of clothes that didn't fit so exhcanged them today and actually took the time to try them on - which I almost never do because of fear and triggers. I can't even put into words this new, different sense of being. ANd like all new, tenious things, it may not be here tomorrow - but I have to learn that that doesn't make it *not Real*.
I was smiling at everyone and just had an aura of.... KIYA around me.... i guess. =) I was even talking with the store staff - something i never do. Pretty cool what a sense of liberation can do to a person. I really HOPE this lasts. and is REAL.
Kiya