Hello Porcupine....I, too, feel your pain. I've sat in dr's office after dr's office and nothing has helped me either... My T and I recently discussed ECT but I am totally afraid I will lose what is left of my memory and I can't possibly do that to my dd....

The bottom line is that doctors today treat the symptoms....not the full patient....well most of them do....and it is extremely difficult to find a doctor who is not burned out and just pushing pills... And if you have a chronic condition, it is even worse because they don't want to have to be the one to fill out any forms and such....that is just too much more work for them... They would rather see the people who are just dealing with life's crisses....it is much simpler for them.... The bottom line is that it is about money...and if you dont have it you won't get treated.... It takes seeing many, many doctors before we can unfortunatley find the right one.

My pdoc is awful but I keep seeing her because I've been through too many and it took me six months to find her after my other pdoc quit taking my insurance. My tdoc's have both been wonderful...but fighting bipolar for me has been a lose lose situation.

I hope that you can find a kinder, gentler doctor and meds that work for you. I am medication resistant and this is difficult... Most of my friends are no longer calling and when I do call them they aren't very interested in what I have to say....they think I have given up so they have given up on me....sad but true!

TJ