well i am now up to 150 mg of zoloft. the therapist who comes to my school each week is now going to probably come twice a week to see me. she told me yesterday that she was going to have me working on a "workbook." i am NOT looking forward to this, b/c she said it is a self-help book on abuse (i absolutely HATE that word!!!!!!!!!!). i asked her why she thought i needed it. i have trouble looking people in the eye, she says it is b/c i am afraid of the possiblity that people will see how my life is and how much i suck at life (my words not hers). she says i WAS a**sed. see my step-mom used to be soooo mean. she was always yelling mean things at me and accusing and punishing me for untruthful things. i dont see how that qualifies as a**se. i mean sure she made me feel worthless and suicidal but if i was a**se then social services would have taken us out when my family was all the time calling and reporting stuff-they say it is a**se too. i am sooooo confused. help me please......i don't want to give in to the blade tonight.