Hello everyone. I hurt myself about 2 nights ago. I fought and fought and fought the urge. I tried to talk myself out of it. I just couldn't fight anymore and I gave in. I cut with something I have never used before. Before that I burned myself on accident and it felt so good. My step-mom knew about my cutting in the past and knew that I had quit. She also told me that it was very disrespectful and if I were to live under her roof I was NOT to cut. Well, I am back living with them after 9 or 10 years. And I have been here 2 months now, and it happened. She will never find out of course, but I feel so guilty. Now that i know how it feels, I want to do it again and again. They have left for the day and am home alone with the dog. So the urge is extremally high. Actually it doesn't matter if they are home or not. I just know that I don't have to hide doing it until they get home. So my mind is going round and round as to what I should use. Please help! What do I do.