So much for self esteem.

I had been feeling pretty good lately because I was starting to feel better about my appearance.

One of the things which really boosted my confidence was finally getting to talk with the girl next door, the one I had said was avoiding me for so long because I thought my looks scared her away. A few days ago, I had been pleasantly surprised when I went outside to talk with her to ask about the stray cat she was feeding and she treated me like a regular guy. I finally broke the ice. And last night, I went out to talk with her again and she was really nice.

But I should have known.

Today, she was out there again feeding this cat while talking on her cell phone. She was talking about the cat and mentioned "the guy next door also likes this little cat." There was some silence and she then said "He has a pretty good personality but that's it!"

So, I was right all along about her anyway.

I should have known the way I had been feeling lately was too good to be true.

I don't know what it's going to take for me to finally learn my lesson and accept what IS.

No one ever said the truth can't suck.