Like Mlp said "lots of Good Ideas from everyone". Absoutely,Thanks, so much you guys for your help. I am going to take it to heart what you told me and help myself get better. I am so GLAD everyone is here for each other. I hope I can return when I feel better to help others feel better too and support them. It means so much to me to have loving, caring people here. Staying busy, some volunteer work, I am going to those places suggested too. Another, good thing for me to do as you said was to write these thoughts down when I have them, when I go to my T everything is fine and I forget to mention. I wish he did have email, he doesn't, the one that does she doesn't take my insurance. I started to put my notes organized in my computer, it is helping, keeping what I am learning in a safe place, so I don't lose, so that I have to relearn again. I am going to start journalizing again. I did clean the house the day, these thoughts were bothering me, it did keep my mind off them. I was even able to concentrate on some music when I was doing it. I will keep posting. It is so nice to have you guys , thank you again. HUGS to all of you.

Kibo