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I have to admit that I was afraid at what your T said

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OMG so was I. I actually fantasized yesterday afternoon that I had to write him a "Dear john" letter, saying "thank you very much but sayonara" (and enclose a check for one week). I figured he meant he wanted me to quit. But he doesn't. He is simply challenging me to take my own power--to admit that I have the power over my circumstances now despite the fact that there was a time in my life that I didn't. Although he didn't say this directly I just know he meant it because I know he cares about me and I know that he wants only good for me. And--we have had many conversations about the prospect of personal power and, in fact, when I first began therapy I told him I didn't believe I had any and he goes, "I know."

Sigh. I feel good but absolutely exhausted today. This is really hard work.