Hi Mouse,
I havent spoken directly to you before, (well, this being bounced off a satelite or something, -- relatively directly!), but I often read your posts, and I've wanted to ask, - I can hear the insights you are getting, do you know what orientation your T. is? I'd like to know, I have been doing a lot of reading and exploring myself and getting various insights too.
I get that my mum had that 'special' thing, the results of it were disasterous IMO. Although, at times they showed through in a sort of tragi-comic way. In her 90's she was losing her memory, I took her for an assessment with a psychologist who asked her to put an envelope in a drawer and then remember where she'd put it a few moments later, my mum complained with haughty disdain that it was too BORING! for her to remember. She said that word boring in this plummy accent that she had as if she was almost vomiting the word! So, yeah, having that kind of thing going on in ones background really doesnt help one to stay in cool, comfortable reality, ... its all in the footwork I guess, but actually, I've never sensed anything very distancing or haughty about your sharing...

river