((( Dustin )))

It's so good to see you again, although I'm sorry you're feeling bad. Congratulations on your one year in thearapy--that's a great accomplishment!

It sounds like you and T have a deep therapeutic relationship. She's accepting of your feelings about her and that must feel good. She's sitting with you while you go through this and she'll help you with it. She won't leave you because she doesn't have to choose between you and her friend. The thought of leaving is something in your mind rather than hers. As hard as this is, I think there is great opportunity to learn more about you, to explore your feelings about this. Can you ask her to help you find a way to feel a secure connection withher again?

All that having been said, I still understand and can very much relate to the desparation and panic around the fear of her leaving you and that it seems real because it is so frightening.