((((((((((((((((((( everyone )))))))))))))))))))

T is just gone for the weekend. He'll be there for my appointment on Monday.

The overwhelming feelings started coming back last night, but I tried to do the things T told me to do to get through the weekend. I reminded myself that feelings aren't emergencies, they're just information. Of course, I don't know what the information IS or what to do about it, but I hung on to the "not an emergency" part. I read on a suicide prevention thing to just get through today. So, I told myself last night, I just had to get through last night. And now it's today, and I just have to get through this day.

T wants me to learn to give myself grace. So when I start thinking "why am I like this, I'll always be like this, other people can handle things better than I can, etc, etc, etc", I'm trying to stop and just let myself BE without so much judgment. Not easy.

So, I'm still kind of hanging in here, I guess.