(((((((((((((((((((((GREY))))))))))))))))))

Well said. I am anticipating the anxiety. And your right. It is enough to drive me crazy. The question is why? Why do I do this? Who knows. Maybe I am just used to be anxious. Maybe, being relaxed is not something I'm used to. I know that sounds dumb but it is true.
One of the worst parts of this whole thing is my intrusive thoughts. I hate them and wish they would go away and never return. It is pure hell for me to have to deal with them. I havent met too many people who have had thoughts of hurting a loved one. Maybe, they either don't want to admit it or I am the only one
In any case. Im not doing much better today, but at least I made it to work. YUCK!!!

Thanks Grey. Take care.