jin we all make mistakes i also did this to my kids while i was seperated thinking that the kids would be better of with there dad, but you know it was him that saved me but he didnt belive what i had done his so called friends told him i was faking he told daughtwer this she resented me for ages and watched me like a hawk, i even took her to kernow doc so i could get some meds to help me through that weekend

but i belive she is starting to understanding why

your son told his friend and mum coz he needed to talk about it
dont try to make him understand tell him you love him it was a mistake you are trying to learn to live past this