(((Kiya))) i know.... if being healthy isn't good enough for them then screw them....

i think i have seriously misunderstood some things my bf has said.. which is good. he wants me to be there, said if i want to get married and have kids that's ok. i don't really, but it's good to know that he'll be there.

so that is one thing that has made me feel better.... only the eating disorder stuff is still there. i don't think of it as... well.. a constant thing. it's more like "occasional".

a nutritionist? well... i don't think i could afford it =( and i guess i wouldn't even take the advice at this point.

but i know i don't want to live with serious health issues. or die or anything like that. i guess i want to stop. i want to be healthy. but still.. argh, decisions are difficult, life is difficult, but you still gotta do something with it.

i don't think i'm getting anywhere with this rambling so i'll stop ;D

it was good to hear from you kiya. very good actually.