My friend is bright, intelligent, creative, an honestly good person. And she keeps trying to die. I've lots count of how many serious attempts she has made and I don't know everything she has done. In the process she is becoming more and more physically damaged too.

I can't save my friend. I can't even help anymore. Except in a distant way by taking good care of myself. I make sure that as much as possible my PTSD doesn't get triggered.

I figured that I could keep her garden watered while she is gone, so I'm doing that. And praying that somehow she survives and is able to thrive.