thanks everyone .... i had just finished writing this when my phone rang .... I ignored it .... usually do .... then i thought maybe it was my son, he's at work today. So i went downstairs to check the last number .... it was my sons friends mum .... she was in a state and had rowed with her hubby so i told her to come on round for a coffee. I ran around like a headless chicken getting dressed, straightening things etc. She seemed to be an answer from above .... then as we talked she told me she knew a few things that had happened (i posted in ptsd)and when she went i felt worse .....

I did some laundry,cleaning and cooking and that made me feel better. Tonight i pampered myselfin the bathroom for an hour and i feel muh better ... Tony breaks up for 20 days tomorrow .... we go on holiday on Friday .... my son and i talked, Tony and I talked and now i feel ok .... sorry this is so long .....

Thankyou everyone((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))NTR you are right, i have felt this way before ..... these last few days have been like a rollercoaster somehow .... really up or really down ....

anyway, I feel better now, thanks to talking to my family and you guys (((((((((((((((love))))))))))))))))))))))

Jinny xoxoxoxoxoxo