Oh gosh I'm so sorry I really felt so bad earlier .... i guess i acted a little hasty writing all that down .... I have spoken to Dom ... I told him again that at the time i loved them both so much I thought they would be better off wthout me, it wasn't that I didn't care .... i told him it was the illness ....

Also now i've thought about it i realise yes HE needs to talk to someone too .... i cant blame him for that. I know one day he will forgive me .... and i wouldn't ever put either of my kids thru that again ..... sometimes (i think Orange said this) I would like to unzip my head so that they could see why i'm like this sometimes .... i'm sorry i've posted like this ... i find it hard to realise that people care sometimes, my bad .....i just want you all to know i really appreciate you all so much, and i'm stupid for writing what i did

Sometimes for a fleeting moment it seems like a good idea ... but i know it totaly IS NOT ..... love y'all, Kerry xoxoxoxoxo