i am ony concerned for your well being Kerry, not meaning to impose or cause you to feel uncomfortable.. as you had mentioned above, this is a repeating cycle of up and down, good and bad that you are aware of yourself.... as you know, it isnt a healthy place for you to be and i was trying to help you break out of it... please dont take it the wrong way.. i presume you come here for help and advice and so i offered you that.. hope you feel better soon...