I was just wondering if it seems like I may have BPD?
I'm a 16 year old male.
I was sort of sexually abused when I was younger (it's a complicated story). I have a huge fear that the world is just going to shut me out (like I lose everyone I know and whatnot). I self-mutilate myself (stopped for 2 years until recently). I have thoughts of suicide and how I'm going to do it. I'm starting to take double (or more) of Tylenol PM because I can't fall asleep before 3-4am everynight, no matter that I try. And I take loads of Excedrin whenever.
Also at my work McDonald's I'm an under 18 manager, and I have been getting talked to by superiors a lot lately because of "terrible mood swings and outbursts of anger" and "You live and think ONLY in a black & white world".
I don't go to highschool (taking the GED path) and that took a weight off my shoulder but I feel everyone looks at me with discust and hate and talks about me behind my back because I'm a failure.
I have never had stable friendships, family relationships, or a relationship with a girlfriend. I seem to have a lot of friends and then I lose them and make more and that has always repeated. But now I have basically NO friends at all. No best friend and not even one close friend. But when I do have friends, I tend to be clingly and/or jump into relationships quickly.
I like to show-off stuff a lot as well.
I am pretty self concious about how I look. I have also been eating a lot more lately.
I also feel worthless and have been told a lot I am extremely paranoid.

I just want to know if it sounds like BDP, or maybe I am just paranoid. I have something, I must. I just don't know what.