Yeah, but surely its more than about being more comfortable, it sounds like you've got some deep things to work through and you deserve understaning and support.

Your situations sounds painful at present, but you are searching and willing to look at your deep issues which means I think you will get well and be an inspiration and help to others. I have lived so many lonely times, but i had nothing like your self awareness when I was your age, so well done!

therapists can help enormously, but keep your intincts with you whilst you choose.

riverx