I don't know why I feel this bad. I just know I can't think of anything else. I know two or three things that should help me stop but I don't want to do them. It takes too much energy and most likely won't work. I can't call my doctor because he will tell my husband about it and then my husband will freak out. I don't want him to worry anymore. Your suggestion of the freezing water might help but I don't know. I'm like paralyzed. I wish I could stop thinking.