Yes, he notices my mood changes and really, he causes them by the way he babies these kids and makes me feel like they are so much more important than me. It's little stupid things that stress me out so much. Maybe I should see a counselor. Like this morning - he has to pour his son a glass of juice and leave it sitting on the counter for him before work and make his lunch. This kid will be 17 in a couple of months. He never pours me a cup of coffee or anything. Then Saturday his 14 year old daughter got breakfast pizza from the deli and I never got any breakfast or asked if I would have liked some too. I have tried to talk to him, but he doesn't understand and I guess I don't either at times. I get so angry and then I take it out on the kids and dislike them because of it. My boyfriend and I are going to be married soon and I sure would like to get this under control and not have to feel stressed all the time. Actually, his son lives with us tempoarily and I am really not happy with that either but I love my b/f more than anything in this world.
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