Under a rock and under a million judgements and rational or irrational worries and panic.

I completely and irrevocably suck.


Having changed meds I realise how "un me" the meds I was on made me, how they "made" me ignore my health (and other issues) Now I'm left to clean up the mess, including a "butt" issue I've ignored for over 2 years. The doctor completely fobbed me off, I;m used to being treated as if I'm worthless by doctors so accepted it and refused to look at the alternatives of what it might be as the doctor, as usual, couldn't be bothered. So now I have to make an appointment and insist on being looked at
and ... oh whats the point in cluttering up this place with my garbage.
whine out