Sunrise I am glad you feel like you've move though a transformative experience. It sounds like you feel really good about the growth and change you've made. It also sounds like during your session that you and your T stopped for a moment and allowed yourself to be fully consumed by your happiness. I real one of your other posts regarding giving T's gifts. From how you describe your T, I think your ability to briefly share your happiness with him was a certainly viewed as a great gift.

I hope you are willing to share more of this experience with us. I like to hear about these experiences. It give me hope that happiness although fragile and seeming unsustainable in this world does exists.

So in an effort amplify this experience I will ask you more about it and how you found it. I know it is likely personal so realize that I am not asking for specific details. I just would love to hear about the overall experience.
If you do not want to share any more on this it is OK to say, "Chaotic butt out". I'll put my curiosity in check.

You mentioned that you've had a really intense month both in and out of therapy. From what you've shared here I say: "Damn, girl you have been wadding through some serious crap!" You have certainly earned yourself a lot more than a passing moment of... I Feel Happy. I am reminded of one of Mouse_'s post where she shared a Buddhist perspective on Pain vs. Pleasure. (That was a great share--TY again mouse )

I'll start my inquiry with this statement:
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It had to do with my recognizing how I felt about a certain behavior I have that dates back to childhood.

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When I read this statement, you seem to be saying that the recognition of how you felt was more important than simply acknowledging the age-old behavior pattern. Since I frequently misinterpret things, it this correct? Can you elaborate on how this recognition came about? Was is something that occurred gradually and at one point you stepped back and said, Hmmm wow? Or did your feeling just come in the form of a.... catharsis? (I like that word...there was a great thread on the spirituality forum on it).

Sunrise, if you are not interesting in sharing more about this experience, that's OK. Just know that I am very glad that you found a moment of happiness recently and that you took the opportunity to share this gift with our T and with us. Thank you

I hope that what your fearing as a sign of the "beginning of our end" turns out to be just a beginning glimpse of the many much happier moments to come both in your therapeutic relationship and in other relationships.