my tears are building up my throat is closing in and i feel a huge lump in my throat as my chest tightens trying to hold the tears back, i feel like i am having a tug o war with my emotions today- one side of me is pulling me to feel one thing while the other side is pulling me to feel other things- its like im not in my body at times then i am and when im in my body my emotions are so intense i can not handle them anymore. sorry for taking your time reading this crap- im just venting, no big deal im not worth it.