I have an idea of how you feel. Truly, though, life is incredibly short and to live life unhappily is such a waste. This is what I've been telling myself to get through all the guilt I've faced with not "loving" my husband anymore. I also feel I owe him everything because he has put me through college, it's a %#@&#! feeling. But you have to out weigh whats most important....hopefully you can discover that easier then I can.