It's never stupid to write how you feel or what you're worried about. I think we've all been there.

That said, there is no "difficult Borderline Personality Disorder" in my DSM-IV so either it's coming out in the V or it's just something your doctor is using. Borderline patients can have hallucinations, but it's not in the diagnostic criteria.

I just had a thought - the DSM-IV is made by the American Psychiatric Association so if you are in Finland it could very well be a legit diagnosis there. I'd be interested in getting links if you have any?

How often do you hallucinate? Do you also have delusions?