it's probably just something the doctors are using. i have heard, however it from others that they have been told their bpd is "difficult". both dsm and icd are in use in finland... i have not studied them very closely yet. except icd-10 a bit but not the personality disorders part. it came as a real surprise i didn't expect a personality disorder at all. and i was a bit confused with the difficult part as it wasn't mentioned in any official documents.

lately i've been having hallucinations weekly (which don't bother much) and last night i started having auditory hallucinations. for a good three or four months i was free of them. i think i have some delusions, but they are mostly because of the bpd, like "everyone will leave me", "everybody wants to hurt me/is after me"... and for ages i haven't been able to listen to the radio because i fear spies or agents can see where i am if i put it on. etc... most of the time i don't believe in spirits but whenever i read about them they freak me out and i start feeling their presence. or demons or something. i don't know what t think of them right now.

sorry about rambling so much.. i'm v confused right now because i really can't afford to be psychotic right now whether it is because of the bpd or psychotic disorder or whatever.

thanks for taking your taking to reply, girlbassplayer. it is very mch apprecited!