I have a great amount of shame inside of me. I'm not even exactly clear about where it comes from, there is some childhood stuff. But this shame is so strong. It interferes with all my relationships (which I keep to a minimum), but is really a problem in therapy.
I have things that I cannot get myself to talk about, they make me feel too "icky". The problem is that these are issues that I have to work through, asap.
Just wondering if anyone can relate. How can you let go of the shame long enough to work on things that the shame is a result of?
I love my t, I trust her as much as I can anyone, I don't feel like this is a problem with our relationship. It is a problem within me.
I do try to write things down and let her read them, but I even get all squeamish when she is readling them, to herself.
I know ppl are going to say you just have to work through it and make yourself talk, but how do you do that???