<font color="purple">for over a week now I have been having horrible nightmares...some morbid..all very scary! I beleive it has something to do with the sentencing hearing a few weeks ago for the creep that abused her... anyway... there also was at the time a girl the same age as my daughter who was assaulted but murdered... it made national news.... and I feel so lucky that I am able to hug my children and enjoy my daughetrs smile and laugh despite what the creep did to her.....

anyway... so I feel it most likely has to do with that and the fact that just now am I processing what happened to my daughter... I had been focused on her and the family , keeping them comforted and put myslef on hold.... or maybe it has to do with fact that she is heading off to 7th grdae and I am terrified.... not normal parental fears, b/c I have other kids that are graduated and didnt feel like this... but my duaghter is delayed mentally, emotionally, socially, academically, etc.... i am afraid for her well being... and the school hasnt assured me that she is safe... and i just dont know....

these nightmares are keeping me up at night... some of them she gets hurt, some she dies, some are of the creep and his family being around....some are of my daughter being abused again....its is just horrible and no I do not have a dr right now and I know I need too.... we all need to... duaghter went to counseling but the rest of us didnt and we need to ....

and last night i was triggered as well as an alter.. and I have been doing well.... they ahve been pretty dormant and then all of a sudden a rush of instant depression, paranoia, urge to hurt, alter screaming adn scared...it all just sucks!!

anyway, not sure if i even had a question here just needed to express it and feel safe and here I know I can and am.... </font>