Thank you Ryan for the good wishes. Fortunately I'm not always triggered by the names but this past week has been a very disjointed one and I guess out of that confusion I don't always get to play censor on what comes out. In fact it is like seeing your handwriting and knowing it is yours but being baffled by the content of the writing. Or like hearing a tape of your own voice but being perplexed by the content of the speech on that tape.

The only explanation I can live with is the world is filled with people raised on a culture of violence and disrespect for children and women. I cannot wrap my head around the idea that some sick a$$hole would find torturing and beating a child for sex a 'good time'.

No matter how many years I've spent examining this I cannot make sense of it.