Yes, there actually is more going on..... Due to my depression I fight a daily battle with my suicidal ideation, so sometimes I think that a "natural" death...say a heart attack, wouldn't be that bad....

Last year I had a fasting cholesterol test and the results were less than great. Over 300 total, 255 bad and we actually never got to the good....go figure
My doctor wanted me on lipitor ASAP, Well, that depression thing got in the way and I didn't fill the Rx.

Enter the spike in blood pressure. Now for me a heart attack would be an okay way to go, my dad died of one in his thirties. But a stroke??? With my luck, I would be permanently disabled and doomed to an existence I could do nothing about.....

Sad isn't it? (In that, "what is she crazy?" kind of way) I am such an a_ _.