Hi japanese lily

Welcome to PC.

Sounds like a bittersweet reaction. I remember that umpteen years ago...happy it had a "name", mad and sad because it had a "name". Medications and therapy are extremely helpful, and can help you remain happy and stable. We can still have a bad day here and there (doesn't everybody). Pdocs are generally wonderful with listening to worsening of symptoms, and mine even calls me back if it happens during visits. Constant communication is so important between you, the medical professionals, and your family. How wonderful you have such a supportive family, makes all the difference in the world.

Wishing you peace, and keep us updated.

Take care,
Dee